Asking my heart energy (atman/purusha) to help me understand the difference between the I (spirit) and the i (ego). I don’t feel attached, however I do see my desire and actions often coming from seeds planted from past experience. So i must be attached to the past. So the I and i wonder is this life the universal, time being an illusion past present future, is it the dream, or is it my ego the i reaching.
Focused mind, loving intention, centered in the universal, flowing seems to ask me to live outward from withing with no agenda, opinion, or expectation.
Creativity expressed and received. Shakti/Kundalini/Shiva
I and i sit silent, peaceful, awake. Gazing up to the blue sky and watching the movement of clouds…the sun still golden behind the clouds, the trees kissing the light.
The elements of nature that are witnessed with the seeing eye, and felt with the vehicle (the body) are part of the material. The soul residing in the vehicle (the body) is whole and radiant, filled with the cosmos, stars, sun, moon, fire, air, ether, water, and wood; is that. The reason, the definition of what I and i see in the moon when it is full and bright and the star speckled sky is seen because it is me and inside of me. The heat and life giving sun is me and inside of me.
The I the soul is universal and ever-expanding. This is why to try to define, measure, or classify it always diverts the true meaning and or essence of the whole. Whole being a word to define what is separate. When nothing in fact truly can be separate from the whole. Only through the perception of ego is there duality? Yin and Yang are the definitions given by the ancient eastern medicines..
So, the funny thing is that the taming of and non-identification of the ego (i) is an ongoing life practice. It amazes me how I can shift so quickly from pure bliss to total attachment in a matter of moments. Trying to witness the shift, still detached from the story i find myself react. So then I ask myself am I or i truly detached or delusional? I am always awake, however, i still find myself attached through the senses i.e. chocolate.
My thought here is to witness and understand that I and i am in the flow of the universe, however my practice as a soul in the body is a human experience. To understand the humanism of i and still understand the nature of reality and perception I and i continue the meditation…
To understand the perception and the ego lens I and i must participate in the world of things and people.
Breathing and witnessing gracefully I and i grow into and with my organic being.
All this philosophical, practical, and esoterical/cosmic thought and experience, where does it find I and i?
Be real, natural, like uncarved wood and the waves. be loving unconditionally to myself (I/i) and all beings.
Enjoy each precious moment with the gratitude and awe of a small child.
Questions of the Ego and Spirit, a journey of the Soul…
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